"Reflections"

"I am weary with my groaning; all the night make I my bed to swim; I water my couch with my tears." (Psalms 6:6) Do you know what is happening here with David? After having determined in his heart that he could not put off another day from repenting before God, he is now doing what must come next, and he is reflecting upon all those things which he has sinned in, and how he must receive forgiveness for each and every one. Reflections of the heart can be very trying, and as I mentioned before, it is like peeling an onion: there are layers upon layers, and it is sure to bring a tear to our eye. This is no quick shout out to God for forgiveness, but is a fierce time of regrets for having laughed in the face of God! That might seem a little harsh to say, and might even sound as something which David would never do; but think about this for just a moment, and think about where our hearts are when we sin; the actual action of our heart when we do something which we know that we should not be doing. There is a certain hilarious rebellion that takes place in our hearts; much like a young child who laughs as he is doing exactly what his parent has told him not to do. When we honestly take the time to not only repent of our sins, but to think about how that we have sinned, which is to say, what motivated us to sin, then we are beginning to get to the root of our problem! The first thing that we must remember about David is that he was not only a king and a preacher, but he was also a prophet in his own rights; and being that he was a prophet, he was given insight into future events; very vivid insight into the actual scenes of what Jesus would be going through as He took our sins upon Himself on that cross. These were visions of what was to be, and were in a certain way, were more powerful than looking back to what has already been. That might not make much sense to some, but we are looking at our sins in a rear view mirror, whereas David was looking forward to what would take place to gain forgiveness of his sin. The thought of the cost of sin, and the price which was to be paid for that sin, was enough to leave him broken! There is something which should be noticed in what David is saying in the verse above; which is that he was not just weeping at night, and in his bed; but was also weeping during the day, and on his couch! In other words; this was not a quick time of repentance; but was one that went on from the night, and into the next day; and in the words of someone famous, "We sure as heck did not get here overnight..."