"Isolation"

"I am feeble and sore broken: I have roared by reason of the disquietness of my heart." (Psalms 38:8) Yes, it goes from rejection to isolation naturally; there are really no other ways that we can explain the way being separated from God because of sin takes it's toll on our hearts. Before we became a Christian, there was isolation from God, but it did not really matter all that much to our hearts, because we were in fellowship with the world, therefore we did not feel all alone; after becoming a Christian, when we fall out of fellowship with God, things get pretty lonely out here in the world, and there is really no fellowship here for us either. It is kind of like the way of Cain, who after killing his brother was made to live the life of a vagabond, having been separated from the rest and having a mark placed upon him as a murderer. Don't think that does not happen, because it does; the world sees who we are, and they will not fellowship with us either, because they know we are one of His children; it like they don't want whatever curse might come upon us to come on them also. To help explain what David means in the first part of this verse, we could imagine what we might feel like to try and move our body once it has been frozen, or made rigid by something else; if we try and move it anyways, we are going to feel as though we have broken it. The way that relates to our hearts, is that of being unable to rejoice because of guilt; yet when we try and rejoice anyways, it only breaks our heart, because it is not a joy that counts; it's only a superficial joy that leaves us realizing how much we really lack the real joy that comes from having fellowship with God. If you have seen the movie ''Bad Lieutenant", staring Harvey Keitel, then you can probably get the meaning of "roared" that David uses as he says, "I have roared by reason of the disquietness of my heart". It actually is more of a groaning, or a cry of distress that is brought on by grief, because the grief brings violence upon our hearts; and the grief is brought on by being isolated from the One who loves us because of sin; sin that needs to be dealt with properly, because up to this point, all of our efforts have been rejected, because they have been halfhearted efforts... "Behold, the LORD'S hand is not shortened, that it cannot save: neither His ear heavy, that it cannot hear: but your iniquities have separated between you and your God, and your sins have hid His face from you, that He will not hear. For your hands are defiled with blood, and your fingers with iniquity; your lips have spoken lies, your tongue hath muttered perverseness. None calleth for justice, nor any pleadeth for truth: they trust in vanity, and speak lies; they conceive mischief, and bring forth iniquity. They hatch cockatrice' eggs, and weave the spider's web: he that eateth of their eggs dieth, and that which is crushed breaketh out into a viper. Their webs shall not become garments, neither shall they cover themselves with their works: their works are works of iniquity, and the act of violence is in their hands. Their feet run to evil, and they make haste to shed innocent blood: their thoughts are thoughts of iniquity; wasting and destruction are in their paths. The way of peace they know not; and there is no judgement in their goings: they have made them crooked paths: whosoever goeth therein shall not know peace. Therefore is judgement far from us, neither doth justice overtake us: we wait for light, but behold obscurity; for brightness, but we walk in darkness. We grope for the wall like the blind, and we grope as if we had no eyes: we stumble at noonday as in the night; we are in desolate places as dead men. We roar all like bears, and mourn sore like doves: we look for judgement, but there is none; for salvation, but it is far off from us." (Isaiah 59:1-11)