"Interlude"

 "Don't sin by letting anger control you. Think about it overnight and remain silent." Interlude

"Offer sacrifices in the right spirit, and trust the LORD. Many people say, "Who will show us better times?" Let your face smile on us, LORD. You have given me greater joy than those who have abundant harvests of grain and new wine. In peace I will lie down and sleep, for you alone, O LORD, will keep me safe." (PSALM 4:4-8 NLT)

 As I was thinking about all of the blessings God have poured out upon me over this many years, there was nothing more I felt thankful for than having the companionship with my wife. Even in these past 22 years of taking care of her and waiting for God to heal her or take her home, I have felt more in love with her now, then I did before she was in this condition. 

 If you knew what you had, and then it was drastically change, you would have wished you were more patient and understanding, instead of always wanting to be right and having arguments about stupid things which I wish I could have taken back. Now, I would love the opportunity to have an argument with my wife, just so I could be the humble one that would forget about myself, and just, love her as Christ loves me! 

 Back, several years ago, when I saw Pat on Fox News talking about his feelings about a spouse leaving their significant other, if they might have a brain disorder, I was shocked and furious; mostly for the reason he gave that he felt it was okay: "For the sake of companionship!" I angerly shout out to the tv, saying, "What companionship do you think you have with a Holy God, if it wasn't for Jesus Christ!" 

 I know, I was a little judgmental, but it hurt my heart to even think that it was okay to break a promise: "To have and to hold, till death do us part." Just because you can't share and do certain things you once enjoyed. doesn't mean you cannot still have companionship together! I give my wife more attention now than I did before, making every effort to bless her, reading to her, praying over her, and singing songs to her. 

 I cannot remember ever singing to her before her accident. We sang together at church, but for me to just sing out loud as I held her in my arms, that wasn't something I ever did before; but I really wished I would have! Be thankful for what you have, always; and with a thankful heart, give God thanks...

""You have heard that our ancestors were told, 'You must not murder. If you commit murder, you are subject to judgment.' But I say, if you are even angry with someone, you are subject to judgment! If you call someone an idiot, you are in danger of being brought before the court. And if you curse someone, you are in danger of the fires of hell. So if you are presenting a sacrifice at the alter in the Temple and you suddenly remember that someone has something against you, leave your sacrifice there at the altar. Go and be reconciled to that person. Then come and offer your sacrifice to God."" (Matthew 5:21-24 NLT)