"Partakers"

"For we which have believed do enter into rest, as he said, As I have sworn in my wrath, if they shall enter into my rest: although the works were finished from the foundation of the world." (Hebrews 4:3 KJV)

  "Therefore, since we have been made right in God's sight by faith, we have peace with God because of what Jesus Christ our Lord has done for us. Because of our faith, Christ has brought us into this place of undeserved privilege where we now stand, and we confidently and joyfully look forward to sharing God's glory. We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance. And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation. And this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love." (Romans 5:1-5 NLT) 

 Just to be clear, I groan almost every day, over one thing or another; but that doesn't mean that I do not also rejoice! This is something that I believe is the result of wanting to go home, to be with the Lord. It's not something that I see myself wanting to happen, because I want to care for my wife; but it is still the thing that I look forward to!   

 The way I see it, (please don't judge me), is that we will enter into heaven with everyone that we know, all of us will be together at the same time, as heaven does not keep time, life is eternal. You can believe what you want, but I don't want to wait for anyone, especially my wife. We are soon approaching 22 years of her being in the state she is in; and I think she is starting to get tired from being confined to bed or her wheelchair. 

 It really breaks my heart, but I told the Lord that I was not going to take her life or do anything to cause her to suffer pain, as I saw happen to Terri back in the beginning of this ordeal. Call it wishful thinking, but if I go first, I want to see her there with me, as I don't want to wait for her, worrying about her. 

 Maybe that's what makes me groan all the time, just asking the Lord to please heal her or take her home! There is something I believe God still wants to do, otherwise, why would He not take her home? Sorry for being weird, but this verse has me thinking about time and works that were finished from the foundations of the world...

"All paise to God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. It is by his great mercy that we have been born again, because God raised Jesus Christ from the dead. Now we live with great expectation, and we have a priceless inheritance - an inheritance that is kept in heaven for you, pure and undefiled. beyond the reach of change and decay. And through your faith, God is protecting you by his power until you receive this salvation, which is ready to be revealed on the last day for all to see. So be truly glad. There is wonderful joy ahead, even though you have to endure many trials for a little while." (1 Peter 1:3-6 NLT)